Well. Here I am again at another crossroad.

I spent the past several years in a cycle of having my shit together, struggling, having my shit in disarray, and then feeling lost. No matter what I do I can’t seem to break out of it and MAINTAIN having my shit together.

I love my job, but its exhausting me physically, mentally, and emotionally at the moment.

I love my spouse, but they’re going through their own issues that I can’t sort out for them.

I love my family, but I haven’t been to visit them in a long time because getting a day off is tough and every time the weekend rolls around all I want to do is collapse in exhaustion.

So.

I’m back at a crossroad. I’ll always choose the path of happiness and sanity and having my shit together…but I still hate that I feel like I’m starting all over.